TODAY, as I start to write (well aware that I will not finish this today) It is the first of the sixth month. Please do not get into mathematical averaging with me, I take this to be close enough to half way through a year in which the Christmas of last, yes ‘last‘ year, I swear was only a month ago!
I have been amiss. Well, actually, no. I have been absent. I did say that I would be, yet I haven’t written much at all of the book that I am absent whilst writing. That may be amiss of me indeed. This post is a thank you. It is written to you. Please read on and you will find the part that pertains to you as the unique individual that you are.
Be that as it may be – as I write those six words they strike me as a rather good outlook on life.
OK, I have been bad in some ways. I haven’t achieved that which I set out to. Yet life takes its roads and I diverted onto a path that I enjoyed. I totally believe that life is about the journey not the destination. In attempt to appear contradictory, it is also about the place; where we are.
Not in an estate agent minded, ‘location, location’ manner but in appreciation of that which we have, all that there is rather than focussing on where it is that we think we want to go, planning to obtain all that we think we must or need or feel the necessity of just because we don’t have it. Wow, that is a long sentence!
I would like to compare this to ‘boredom.‘ I’m sure that I have ranted away about boredom somewhere on this blog. The immediate reaction that is mine when I hear somebody state that they are bored.
It is like a red flag to a bull. A button marked ‘Do NOT push.’ I cannot help but respond.
Bored? I ask. Surely if you are bored then you must be boring?
This used to be directed at young people. (I even used to be a young person ;-)) Of late I find increasing numbers of older, adult persons using this throw away statement. (Am I then now associating with more grown ups? ;-))
As a fully grown, matured person (An albeit incomplete definition of adult.) Shouldn’t there have been enough experience in life to date, even enough of the ever multiplying as yet unachieved (should be a word!) desires for consideration, that a state of boredom is truly difficult to obtain?
Now this is, more or less the same argument that I place against a young person being bored. Surely there are so many things that you have no real experience of, so many dreams and desires tumbling over one another that finding yourself in a state of boredom is not possible?
It generally transpires that the word has been somewhat incorrectly used and attached to feelings of insufficient joy with the present moment.
This can be supported by some frustration if for instance the person is somehow forced, through schooling or work to apply themselves to a task that isn’t of particular personal interest. (“feeling weary and impatient because one is unoccupied or lacks interest in one’s current activity” – a dictionary definition.)
Hell, I have certainly been tasked with many jobs that I feel undervalued and uninterested in performing. I have bucked the system repeatedly and it is fair to conclude that the outcome hasn’t favoured me much.
Yet I still do not truly understand the concept of bored. Find a way to take more interest in that menial mind numbing seemingly unnecessary task and gain some ownership of it? Maybe?
If you are an exceptionally enthusiastic eager to prove yourself type.
Myself I have done it whilst thinking of something else.
The book that I am currently failing to get far with, along with other stories and ideas that it could be argued haven’t taken me far?
In Le Petit Prince he states that ‘straight ahead of oneself one cannot go very far.’ I like the statement though could argue against (and for) its truth.
The point being, how far?
How far do I need to go to be where I am now? Am I happy here now?
Should we be in that place doing something to further ourselves? How do you define ‘furthering yourself’? Should we always want more? Is that success? Should any of us be performing tasks that aren’t of ‘particular personal interest’?
Wasn’t the idea of schooling and qualifications that we find things that we are naturally inclined toward and enjoy doing?
Of course not. Schooling is about provision of a work force to feed the system itself. Cynical sounding, like I’ll be off onto a fire and brimstone warning of conspiracy theories in the next paragraph? Wait for the book ;-))
Here I am in my, time out? Intending to write this book. A book, not ‘this’ one. ‘This’ you will have noticed is not a book. It started as a hello and a thank you and I’ll come back to the intention after a little more tangent taking meanderings that are taking this ‘post’ to some length.
I am grateful that I grew out of the allergy to all of those slightly irritating things. I wonder, on a tangent, why so many are irritated by feathers and dust mite and more are not genuinely made ill by false foods, bad air, chemically infested waters and the like in our world today.
I have been unable to write. I may not yet return to writing though this hello, thank you, you are never forgotten message is a process. One that I enjoy where I hope to communicate effectively and in doing so enhance the feeling and consequently do some more.
I have been reading your blogs and lots of other stuff. I’ve failed to keep up with the too many subscriptions I have taken and I must admit that I have had to skim and leave aside for later many, though not as many as I have had to guiltily skip past. Thankfully the largest number I have read.
I have been and intend (more good intentions) to continue taking note of the things around me. Enjoying the breeze, the flowers, the birds and the trees (yes it is meant to rhyme ;-)) The tranquility of all that I see and experience whilst on this path. I’m still following it and enjoying the steady no rush and release from any desire to achieve anything, other than enjoy it. Is that wrong? Is it selfish? Should I not be contributing to society? (Again, wait for the book.) What is the true purpose of life? Is it not to, simply be happy?
Are we missing the point with the structured and controlled society that has been built, city upon town; written, collated in computer based libraries, printed document over handwritten account since the beginning of bartering and monetary value (aka time as we know it)?
Do I feel guilty? – a socially imposed unnecessary feeling that I cannot even mention without thinking of stories of the hypocrisy of catholic guilt. And in my guilt gilded cage of insufficient contribution I am even failing my own good intentions. The writing ones and I’m sure that I can list many more without too much effort.
But (generally a word of negative inference, not here!) I accept that failing is a part of life. Even when trying with all sincerity to follow ones true calling, there are many voices competing to be heard out there.
The sounds of society, rather busy providing justification for further contributions to its’ constant cries for more. I hear the pre-socratic argument between scepticism and empiricism, intellect taking evidence from the senses and providing proofs against them that could not have been provided without them.
Intellect says, Colour by custom/convention, sweet, bitter, hot, cold all these are just names given and in reality (there is nothing but) atoms and void.
The senses reply, ‘Wretched intellect! You get your evidence from us and then you try to overthrow us? Our overthrow is your downfall.’
The argument of course takes a full spiralling circle with the thought that ‘what the senses cannot apprehend must be grasped by the intellect.’
Neither can exist without the other.
Is it that this, possibly original, debate for supremacy within ourselves is in itself the origins of supply and demand? Is it the push and pull of an innate competitive nature that is responsible for the greed of mankind?
No. And at this point I must pull back from the path of that tangent, for the path is long and it is not my intention to go down it now. (Again, please wait for the book. I did say ‘please.’ 😉 )
I have re-found that path I started out on.
It is the path of gratitude and I would really like to thank, well, so much!
The colours of the spectrum and all of those that I am as yet unable to perceive. The wind, the breeze (not in my hair yet still, its feel and all that it carries as it crosses my skin;-)) and the air that I breathe. Its smell, well the smells of plants, of grass and foods and life. My feeling and feelings – all of them good and bad. Nature and even a lot of seemingly unnatural ‘stuff’. All of ours senses and our sharing. So much more and so many people.
All of you reading this please feel my thanks. I’d like too to thank many that will not read this blog.
My friends, all of them. Especially a couple (not a couple as holding hands in a relationship but a couple as two). But there are a couple who will read it. So thank you too to you two 🙂 And the couple of specific thanks are more than a couple, more than a few. I wish to thank all that I cannot share words with and I hope that the ‘feeling’ I extend as I walk past people with a smile on my face is that – and not concern for the stark raving loony 🙂
As for the number that I would like to thank for being my friends, that is all of them, in different ways and for different aspects of our friendships.
I consider myself extremely lucky with a relative (pun intended) number of friends that I can call ‘real’ friends. The definitions of real are of course personal to each of us and at no time in any way do I mean to imply that my definition or perspective is the right one. It just works for me.
So I have more friends than I do family though for the few members of my family I give thanks too. Thanks to those who are no longer, on all accounts. For everybody that has ever played any part touching my life. This could continue for pages especially if I get into any details, which is why I haven’t. Thank YOU. Yes YOU!
I appreciate so much WordsFallFromMyEyes questioning my absence and ever so much more her telling me that she has read everything that I have posted! Wow! The good, the bad and the ugly!? Thank you N’n. I’d like also to thank http://xandrablackprime.wordpress.com and hope that she posts soon. And Whimsical Rebel. Mostly this post is because of you guys and Busy Mind Thinking.
Today WordsFallFromMyEyes posted:
“YOU TAKE ON THE STRENGTH OF THE OBSTACLES YOU OVERCOME”
I couldn’t help my response,
For you, for all people who have the strength and show it by overcoming your obstacles I have an idea, an approach that I am working on:
Life, just the everyday relatively unfocused existence throws things into our paths. Are these obstacles or building blocks?
Then we have the focus, the place where we are going, it may not be as far from us as we think? Just like heaven actually being here on earth and all around us. (OK there are a minority making a true pigsty of our beautiful back yard.)
Another such lady, taking the pains of everyday life and turning them to beauty is Busy Mind Thinking.
In the midst of all that she is experiencing she has the time and thought and presence to nominate me for not one, but two awards.
I am not trying to appear bashful or coy. Not even to shrink my deserving here. We are all deserving, yet it is never-the-less humbling and emotion stimulating to be nominated as it is to be recognised for doing good in whatever way we may.
Why is that? Crazy isn’t it?
Should we not all be recognising and announcing the good, the beauty, the purity and right in our world? The skills and value that each and every one of us has to bring to each and very equation. Recognising, supporting, developing the good that there is in every situation.
I want the world to be able to share them, be interested instead of threatened by others opinions and experiences. I want the world to learn to communicate and truly share and build a heaven that is ours. (I seem to want a lot?!)
Imagine how our world could be! Should be.. CAN be… There I go again, off to Duvet Maybe Someday Baby land 😉
Again, “Should we not all be recognising and announcing the good, the beauty, the purity and right in our world?”
Of course we should.
It isn’t easy is it?
With so much presented of a negative nature. Just turn on the TV and we are confronted with news, bad news makes news it seems. Drama, people’s crises. Somehow we focus on these and the gossip of non-existent characters lives in soap operas to make us feel better about our own?
WTF? Sorry but that fits.
Back from that tangentification… TWO awards! WOW! I am truly grateful – thank you!!
And here they are. I will follow this paragraph with some complying to the conditions of accepting these awards.
I am happy and mentally energetic this lunchtime. I have received a couple of likes on my blog posts. That’s all it takes to make me happy, a little involvement, some feedback. It takes me off on more tangents than I can, ‘shake a stick at.’ Is that the phrase? A little violent in its origin? I mean, why would you shake a stick at something? It’s certainly a step up from the shaking of one’s head in disapproval or disappointment. Waggling one’s finger in a ‘don’t do that’ manner. At any rate, to shake at all the directions I have allowed myself to be led down on all of my today’s I’d need a forest and a whole lot of arms. It’s already mid afternoon.
Complying to rules: Not one of my fortes 😉
This in itself is one of the reasons, finding the rules to comply to is ‘always’ harder than it need be. So here are some pertaining to acceptance of these awards. I’m posting them here to help the following people accept their own. In searching for guidance I came across more, ‘why I do not accept …’ posts than actual advice on how to.
- Thank the person who gave you this award. That’s common courtesy.
- I have already done so yet for good measure and because thanks is nice to give, Thank YOU twice again Busy Mind Thinking. OX
- Include a link to their blog. That’s also common courtesy — if you can figure out how to do it.
- See above
- Next, select 15 blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly. ( I would add, pick blogs or bloggers that are excellent!)
- I follow about that many yet let us see if I can do so. Justifying simply giving awards to the people on my list because they are there. Pros and cons here yet that seems to work. One thing is for sure, we ALL deserve recognition and all as much as I do so…
- Nominate those 15 bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award — you might include a link to this site.
- Finally, tell the person who nominated you 7 things about yourself.
- 15 bloggers who deserve recognition:
- Under The Blue Door
- VodkaWasMyMuse ok N’n you may think this slightly awry from the rules. F..k the rules!
- Whimsical Rebel – Where are you?
- Papa Angst! – you relieve my unspent ball of stress 😉
- Women Who Think Too Much By Jeanne Marie
- Fun Girls Live Better! – they do indeed 😉
- Fatherhood And The Uptown Nerd
- Heartflow2013 – Thank you for some grounding.
- Mybeautfulthings – for recognition of those things, you deserve recognition.
- Nothing By The Book – Damn! You should be higher up on this list.. The next and last will be hard!
- To Be Aware – last but not least for we all should BeAware!
- OK I’ll tell you all and BB (your new pseudonym? 😉 will of course receive the list.
- I am truthfully not that comfortable talking about myself.
- I am an idealist. Not a socialist, communist or (m)any other ist(s) 😉
- I am not working, due in the main to my accident (the last of eight to date) and am discovering how to enjoy the most minimalistic life yet retain quality within it.
- I wish, as much as anything that I have children.
- I want to see the positive in everything, in everyone is easier yet some ‘things’ and a few people representing things do piss me off..
- I’m struggling for simple enough things to tell you – you can tell.
- Is my lucky number. Not that I really believe in such things. It’s not due to my birthday being on the seventh but a guitar we had when I was young. On its, headstock (I had to look that up. I love the internet.) Does that make eight things?) the guitar was named ‘Lucky Seven.’ I cannot play the guitar.